Blisters and all!

Well I know its been quite a while since I was here! A lot has happened! I have singed up for two 5k's and am still doing relay for life! All within three weeks! Some might say I am crazy, but I know I can do it! I have been losing inches all over the place! It's sad! The first inches were in the bust area! Good but bad!

I have been doing wonderfully well! I have the ups and the downs, but that is life. I haven't posted on here because water and laptops dont mix, so after two days in a rice bath and two weeks of sitting it lives again! The keyboard is broke but thats ok! Thank heavens for wireless keyboards!

On a better note, I am doing pretty good when it comes to eating! I have tried some new things. Last weekend we made peanut butter cookies with whole wheat flour and natural peanut butter and they were tasty! :) I am surprised by how good natural and healthy things are!

Well I hope all is well with you all! :)

Goals, Goals, and more goals!

So as I walked up the hill this morning I was thinking to myself I can do this I can do this! This last week has been a good but trying week. I feel like Satan was really pushing me this last week. There were quite a few days where I said to myself "Why am I doing this" "This goal is so unrealistic" "There is no way I can keep doing this"

I pushed through it. Without the help of the Lord I don't know where I would be. I picked up my phone during sacrament meeting yesterday and decided to read a conference talk and it so happens to be the talk by Paul E. Koeliker and the thing that stood out to me was this: "I love being with the full-time missionaries. They are full of faith, hope, and genuine charity. Their missionary experience is like a minilife packaged in 18 to 24 months. They arrive as spiritual infants with a serious appetite to learn, and they leave as mature adults, seemingly ready to conquer any and all challenges placed before them. I also love the devoted senior missionaries, who are full of patience, wisdom, and calm assurance. They bring a gift of stability and love to the youthful energy that surrounds them. Together the young missionaries and the senior couples are a powerful, persevering force for good, which is having a profound effect on their lives and upon those who are touched by their service."    


This is the reason I want to serve a mission. He continues to talk about missionary work and it makes me feel so much better to know this is why im doing all this hard work. :) As I continued my walk I was talking to Melanie and was telling her my goal is to walk to the top of Unity pass and down by the end of the month. If I set little goals I will be able to achieve the bigger goal at the end. So we set up a plan to do just that. 


So aside from the emotional week I have had it was a pretty good week. I did really good with the walking and good with the diet. So have a happy Monday everyone and remember that with the help of the Lord all things are obtainable! 

The Hill of Ghost Past

Well I DID IT!!!!!!! I walked to the top of the hill! I never thought in a million years I could do it! It felt so good to do it! I might be sore the rest of the day, but it was so worth it!

Aside from walking the hill, I have felt so much better after my meeting on Thursday. I feel like even though I had a set back the last two weeks, I can kick this thing in its butt! This is a new day and I will take full advantage of it! :) I fasted and prayed this last week that Heavenly Father would remind me why I am doing this and why I want to do this.

The last time I walked up the hill was with the young women like 4 years ago. I remember just wanting to pass out and die by the time we reached the top. This time I wanted to curl up and take a nap after I looked at the view! However I walked back down! I LOVE walking early in the morning! I have so much more energy today! I feel like running a marathon! (although that will not be happening! lol!)

The trip was good! I was so excited to be back home, where eating and dieting were going to go back to normal. It's hard to stay close to a diet on a trip and I think if I had just started this and left on a road trip, it would have been worse. I learned a lot about myself that was much needed which was good! I learned that I need to let the judgement from those that don't know me and my story to pass and to just know that I am doing this for ME and for those around me that care.

I know that through the strength of the Lord and through the gospel I can do this! It will take a lot of prayer and strength, but I trust Him to know what is the right thing for me to do! Anyways I hope you all have a great day! :) Happy Monday!

This is my now!

As I travel this journey, I always thought it would  be alone. I've learned that there are more people supporting me than I could have ever imagined. I can't believe how much I have been truly blessed this last month. Heavenly Father has made one of my biggest dreams start to become a reality. Even though I've tried before, I know that this is the right time. As Jordin Sparks says "This is my now"

"There was a time when I packed my dreams away." I have discovered that this is so true. I had always thought that I would never be able to lose weight and I was always putting myself down for the fact I wasn't like everyone else. I always told myself that I will always be this size and that no matter what I tried it wouldn't work. I even thought to myself, I will never get married, I will never have children so on and so forth. However things have for sure changed.

"I am made of more than my yesterdays" I am starting to overcome all of these insecurities  I have had for years. I am still not comfortable in a bathing suit, but as I get smaller I will. I love myself now and I'm not afraid of who I am. I know I'm not the size two model, but that's not how Heavenly Father has made me. He has given me this challenge to take on and I will. I won't psych myself out and say I don't have the motivation, strength or whatever excuse I can find. I know I have this strength.

“He shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people. Alma 7:11 

The Mountains are NEVER too high to climb!

I know I haven't blogged since last friday...my bad! I've been sick for the last few days. I pushed through it monday and walked but yesterday I did not even want to move after work. Today was a lot better after I stayed home and slept the whole day. I walked up to Lake Mountain Road and back down and then around the neighborhood going in and out of the streets! I feel wonderful! Next is to the top of the hill! :) I am a tad determined today! Maybe it's all the sleep I got today! WOOT!

The "food plan" as my cute aunt says is going really well this week, even though I haven't felt good! I need to get one of the water bladder things you use when you go camping for my walks, so I don't get so thirsty! Time to start bargain shopping for one! I'm going to try a new recipe for whole wheat cinnamon rolls or something like that! I'm so excited to be doing this journey!

 I would have never thought in a million years that I would be so excited to eat fresh fruit and veggies! I would've thought I was crazy but I know that's not how I think! I am so proud and excited about all the accomplishments I have made in a little less than a month! A year ago I would have never thought to eat ground turkey, a veggie burger, a salad that wasn't drenched in ranch, or even a fried potato. Now I want to eat these things and my family looks at me like where did Tori go. Haha!

I know I couldn't have done this without the help of so many of you! My Aunt Barbara called me today just to tell me that she was proud of me and that she prays for my success everyday. To me that meant the world. She is one of the most inspiring people in my life and I know that whatever question I have she will have an answer or something that can help. :) I never thought that I could walk to the road on the hill without dying, but tonight I DID IT! I am so excited to say that!

I know this is kind of all over the place, sorry! I know the most important thing in this is my Heavenly Father's love and guidance! That has mad this so much easier! I have even realized some of the smallest blessings in my life since I have started this! Anyways, I can't thank you all enough for your support and strength! I love you all dearly! :) Happy Days!

When you try your best and you Succeed! :)

WOOOOHOOO! I am down 9.6 pounds! I have NEVER been so proud of myself and today I am! I stepped on the scale last night and I thought over and over it's gonna be the same OR it's going to be up. I seriously wanted to cry I was so excited. I know I'm bragging but right now I don't care! I'm happy and excited! :)

Last night after I finished getting my new exercises for the next two weeks and having good conversations, I was talking to Melanie and decided we should walk (last night) We went around the neighborhood 3 times! It felt so great! :) I decided last night that my goal for the summer is to do a 5K, so now it's time to look for one. 

No I wont be running, however I will be walking and jogging! :) I hope you all have a safe, fun, and HEALTHY weekend! I love you all and I love the support from you all! :)

Keeping my eyes open!

So...this week has been kind of hard but I'm pushing through it. I have noticed a few things I do that I need to improve on and those would be 1) Watch the emotional eating 2) Remember to push through it no matter what 3) Don't let Satan stand in the way.

Tomorrow is a big day for me. I find out how my weight loss or gain is...SCARY!! According to everyone it looks like I've lost weight, however I don't see it. haha maybe it's because I just don't look in a mirror? All I know is that no matter what that scale says a year from now, it WILL be at least 100 pounds less if not more. I wont let anything stand in the way. Yes I may have my good days and my bad, but that's a part of life. So I will push through it.

What a girl wants!

It's nice to know that no matter what I lose I will still be proud of the progress I'm making in my life. I couldn't be happier with myself! I know that it sounds like I'm being cocky but I am not! This is the best time of my life and I will make it the greatest I can! 

I've been slacking a little on my walking this week. With getting up at 430 in the morning and working all day in a warehouse can wear a person out! I will get better! I promise! :) I have been eating much much better! I tasted a beef burger tonight and it was good but it made me sick! :) that is a good thing! I think! Anyways I hope everyone has a great Sabbath day! Love you all!

Don't you ever feel less than perfect! :)

Today was an ok day. Not the greatest but not the worst! I know my strengths and I know my weakness. That is for darn sure! :)

I have seen some crazy things this week. I was looking for my shorts that fit and I decided to try on a pair I couldn't fit into last year and guess what THEY FITTTTT!!!!!! It was so exciting! Even my other clothes are fitting better!

I know this going to sound bad, however I am so proud of myself. I have never been this proud of myself. I love it! :) This is one of the greatest moments of my short life. This will be a short one tonight but I love you all! Happy Tuesday!:))

Charlie Brown YUM! :)

Today was one of the best days so far! I did my set and I walked! I walked around the neighborhood twice without wanting to shoot someone! It was great! :) This does get easier as you go! Yay!

I had a taco salad for dinner, instead of ground beef we used ground turkey and I first thought that it was going to be gross! It tastes just like ground beef! I don't know why I didn't start this eating healthier stuff ages ago! My grandma makes this desert thing called a charlie brown and normally its high in calories and high in fat, but since we were going to the Bishops house for FHE I asked her to make it healthier. So she used sugar free whipped cream, fat free cream cheese, sugar free pudding. It also has nuts which are good for you? (I think) Anyways, it was very tasty. Even though it wasn't the normal sugary pudding and stuff!

I am loving this more and more everyday! I might get discouraged at times, then my Father in Heaven lifts me up and reminds me that this is what I am supposed to be doing at this point in my life. :)

On a side note, Bishop texted me and asked if I would want to do a temp job for two weeks so I will be doing that for a few weeks. Yay! If they like me they can hire me! Which I think is pretty cool! Happy Monday! :)

This is a lot harder than I imagined, but that is ok!

I've realized the weekend is hard when it comes to food! Holy lanta! I still made some really good decisions! We were out all morning on saturday so when it came time to eat lunch we knew we would be out so we decided to eat at Zupa's. I had in mind something good but healthy and the thought came to my mind Zupa's. I had a chicken salad since I knew they grilled there chicken. And a turkey and tomato sandwhich! Not the healthiest choice but that's ok. I know that I can make up for it. I have been doing much better! \

Now im looking up some new healthy recipes! Which for me is something very foreign. Normally I'm looking up a new pasta or a new fried chicken recipe. I'm so glad I've taken on some new things in my life. I used to hate fresh veggies and fruit now I love them! I never realized that cooking with so many fruits and veggies would be so fun and exciting!

My favorite Breakfast food so far are the nutrigrain waffles and the banana roll ups. This morning my dad came downstairs and asked if he could make me some french toast with just egg whites, small amount of cinnamon. They were so good! OH! He used whole wheat bread too! AMAZING!!! I loved them! :)

If any of you have any healthy recipes you would like to share PLEASE do!!! :)

I have noticed the biggest help in this journey is going to be my Father in Heaven. This isn't going to be easy but it will be worth it! :) Happy Sunday everyone! I love you all and thank you so much for your support!

The Challenge has been accepted!

So yesterday (thursday) I met with my new trainer Trish! Boy do I love this! The one thing I noticed that was hard was getting used to new foods! Going from cuppycakes to veggie spaghetti and nutrigrain waffles might sound easy but for me it was a challenge. The challenge I accepted.

My exercise for this week is one set. 15 Wall Squats with the ball, 15 lunges on each leg, 15 torso stretches with the elastic thingy, and one plank. Which by the way after not doing this kind of stuff, your body shouts for joy and pain! lol! Need less to say I'm very sore this morning, but let me tell you it isn't stopping this lady! :) Walking everyday for 15-20 minutes increasing it by five minutes every two to three days. I am so excited for this new journey and life and can't wait till I'm healthy and all that jazz! :)

This wouldn't be possible without the strength and love of my neighbors and above all my Heavenly Father. Off to another great day I go! Enjoy your friday everyone! :)

The First Day of my New Journey! :)

As I sat there in the doctors office that day waiting to see him, I was dreading stepping up on that scale to know how bad it had gotten. As I stepped onto that scale and read the number I almost had a heart attack.

I've tried for years to lose weight and nothing ever seemed to work. I will admit that it wasn't the programs fault or anything like that it was because of MYSELF that I wasn't successive. Starting today that's changing. It wont be ME holding myself back! I will stop at NOTHING! No one or anything can get in the way of my own success story!  If you don't support me that's your choice. My choice is to stand strong.

I'm sure a lot of you are wondering why now? Why not years ago? To answer your question I have made a big decision in my life. I have decided that a year from now I will be submitting papers to serve a full time mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I knew when I went to meet with Bishop Webb that the word "weight" would be tossed around. I was thinking to myself "how can I lose weight on my own?" "How can I do this with no knowledge of how." Then he said to me "there is a lady in our stake who has helped many people do exactly what you are going to do" There went my questions out the window. I am so glad that Heavenly Father knew what I needed to hear! He knew this is what I'm to be doing at this point in my life.

So starting today I will be the person I am suppose to be!