Saturday, July 14, 2012

Blisters and all!

Well I know its been quite a while since I was here! A lot has happened! I have singed up for two 5k's and am still doing relay for life! All within three weeks! Some might say I am crazy, but I know I can do it! I have been losing inches all over the place! It's sad! The first inches were in the bust area! Good but bad!

I have been doing wonderfully well! I have the ups and the downs, but that is life. I haven't posted on here because water and laptops dont mix, so after two days in a rice bath and two weeks of sitting it lives again! The keyboard is broke but thats ok! Thank heavens for wireless keyboards!

On a better note, I am doing pretty good when it comes to eating! I have tried some new things. Last weekend we made peanut butter cookies with whole wheat flour and natural peanut butter and they were tasty! :) I am surprised by how good natural and healthy things are!

Well I hope all is well with you all! :)

Monday, June 11, 2012

Goals, Goals, and more goals!

So as I walked up the hill this morning I was thinking to myself I can do this I can do this! This last week has been a good but trying week. I feel like Satan was really pushing me this last week. There were quite a few days where I said to myself "Why am I doing this" "This goal is so unrealistic" "There is no way I can keep doing this"

I pushed through it. Without the help of the Lord I don't know where I would be. I picked up my phone during sacrament meeting yesterday and decided to read a conference talk and it so happens to be the talk by Paul E. Koeliker and the thing that stood out to me was this: "I love being with the full-time missionaries. They are full of faith, hope, and genuine charity. Their missionary experience is like a minilife packaged in 18 to 24 months. They arrive as spiritual infants with a serious appetite to learn, and they leave as mature adults, seemingly ready to conquer any and all challenges placed before them. I also love the devoted senior missionaries, who are full of patience, wisdom, and calm assurance. They bring a gift of stability and love to the youthful energy that surrounds them. Together the young missionaries and the senior couples are a powerful, persevering force for good, which is having a profound effect on their lives and upon those who are touched by their service."    

This is the reason I want to serve a mission. He continues to talk about missionary work and it makes me feel so much better to know this is why im doing all this hard work. :) As I continued my walk I was talking to Melanie and was telling her my goal is to walk to the top of Unity pass and down by the end of the month. If I set little goals I will be able to achieve the bigger goal at the end. So we set up a plan to do just that. 

So aside from the emotional week I have had it was a pretty good week. I did really good with the walking and good with the diet. So have a happy Monday everyone and remember that with the help of the Lord all things are obtainable! 

Monday, June 4, 2012

The Hill of Ghost Past

Well I DID IT!!!!!!! I walked to the top of the hill! I never thought in a million years I could do it! It felt so good to do it! I might be sore the rest of the day, but it was so worth it!

Aside from walking the hill, I have felt so much better after my meeting on Thursday. I feel like even though I had a set back the last two weeks, I can kick this thing in its butt! This is a new day and I will take full advantage of it! :) I fasted and prayed this last week that Heavenly Father would remind me why I am doing this and why I want to do this.

The last time I walked up the hill was with the young women like 4 years ago. I remember just wanting to pass out and die by the time we reached the top. This time I wanted to curl up and take a nap after I looked at the view! However I walked back down! I LOVE walking early in the morning! I have so much more energy today! I feel like running a marathon! (although that will not be happening! lol!)

The trip was good! I was so excited to be back home, where eating and dieting were going to go back to normal. It's hard to stay close to a diet on a trip and I think if I had just started this and left on a road trip, it would have been worse. I learned a lot about myself that was much needed which was good! I learned that I need to let the judgement from those that don't know me and my story to pass and to just know that I am doing this for ME and for those around me that care.

I know that through the strength of the Lord and through the gospel I can do this! It will take a lot of prayer and strength, but I trust Him to know what is the right thing for me to do! Anyways I hope you all have a great day! :) Happy Monday!

Monday, May 14, 2012

This is my now!

As I travel this journey, I always thought it would  be alone. I've learned that there are more people supporting me than I could have ever imagined. I can't believe how much I have been truly blessed this last month. Heavenly Father has made one of my biggest dreams start to become a reality. Even though I've tried before, I know that this is the right time. As Jordin Sparks says "This is my now"

"There was a time when I packed my dreams away." I have discovered that this is so true. I had always thought that I would never be able to lose weight and I was always putting myself down for the fact I wasn't like everyone else. I always told myself that I will always be this size and that no matter what I tried it wouldn't work. I even thought to myself, I will never get married, I will never have children so on and so forth. However things have for sure changed.

"I am made of more than my yesterdays" I am starting to overcome all of these insecurities  I have had for years. I am still not comfortable in a bathing suit, but as I get smaller I will. I love myself now and I'm not afraid of who I am. I know I'm not the size two model, but that's not how Heavenly Father has made me. He has given me this challenge to take on and I will. I won't psych myself out and say I don't have the motivation, strength or whatever excuse I can find. I know I have this strength.

“He shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people. Alma 7:11 

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

The Mountains are NEVER too high to climb!

I know I haven't blogged since last bad! I've been sick for the last few days. I pushed through it monday and walked but yesterday I did not even want to move after work. Today was a lot better after I stayed home and slept the whole day. I walked up to Lake Mountain Road and back down and then around the neighborhood going in and out of the streets! I feel wonderful! Next is to the top of the hill! :) I am a tad determined today! Maybe it's all the sleep I got today! WOOT!

The "food plan" as my cute aunt says is going really well this week, even though I haven't felt good! I need to get one of the water bladder things you use when you go camping for my walks, so I don't get so thirsty! Time to start bargain shopping for one! I'm going to try a new recipe for whole wheat cinnamon rolls or something like that! I'm so excited to be doing this journey!

 I would have never thought in a million years that I would be so excited to eat fresh fruit and veggies! I would've thought I was crazy but I know that's not how I think! I am so proud and excited about all the accomplishments I have made in a little less than a month! A year ago I would have never thought to eat ground turkey, a veggie burger, a salad that wasn't drenched in ranch, or even a fried potato. Now I want to eat these things and my family looks at me like where did Tori go. Haha!

I know I couldn't have done this without the help of so many of you! My Aunt Barbara called me today just to tell me that she was proud of me and that she prays for my success everyday. To me that meant the world. She is one of the most inspiring people in my life and I know that whatever question I have she will have an answer or something that can help. :) I never thought that I could walk to the road on the hill without dying, but tonight I DID IT! I am so excited to say that!

I know this is kind of all over the place, sorry! I know the most important thing in this is my Heavenly Father's love and guidance! That has mad this so much easier! I have even realized some of the smallest blessings in my life since I have started this! Anyways, I can't thank you all enough for your support and strength! I love you all dearly! :) Happy Days!

Friday, May 4, 2012

When you try your best and you Succeed! :)

WOOOOHOOO! I am down 9.6 pounds! I have NEVER been so proud of myself and today I am! I stepped on the scale last night and I thought over and over it's gonna be the same OR it's going to be up. I seriously wanted to cry I was so excited. I know I'm bragging but right now I don't care! I'm happy and excited! :)

Last night after I finished getting my new exercises for the next two weeks and having good conversations, I was talking to Melanie and decided we should walk (last night) We went around the neighborhood 3 times! It felt so great! :) I decided last night that my goal for the summer is to do a 5K, so now it's time to look for one. 

No I wont be running, however I will be walking and jogging! :) I hope you all have a safe, fun, and HEALTHY weekend! I love you all and I love the support from you all! :)

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Keeping my eyes open!

So...this week has been kind of hard but I'm pushing through it. I have noticed a few things I do that I need to improve on and those would be 1) Watch the emotional eating 2) Remember to push through it no matter what 3) Don't let Satan stand in the way.

Tomorrow is a big day for me. I find out how my weight loss or gain is...SCARY!! According to everyone it looks like I've lost weight, however I don't see it. haha maybe it's because I just don't look in a mirror? All I know is that no matter what that scale says a year from now, it WILL be at least 100 pounds less if not more. I wont let anything stand in the way. Yes I may have my good days and my bad, but that's a part of life. So I will push through it.