This is my now!

As I travel this journey, I always thought it would  be alone. I've learned that there are more people supporting me than I could have ever imagined. I can't believe how much I have been truly blessed this last month. Heavenly Father has made one of my biggest dreams start to become a reality. Even though I've tried before, I know that this is the right time. As Jordin Sparks says "This is my now"

"There was a time when I packed my dreams away." I have discovered that this is so true. I had always thought that I would never be able to lose weight and I was always putting myself down for the fact I wasn't like everyone else. I always told myself that I will always be this size and that no matter what I tried it wouldn't work. I even thought to myself, I will never get married, I will never have children so on and so forth. However things have for sure changed.

"I am made of more than my yesterdays" I am starting to overcome all of these insecurities  I have had for years. I am still not comfortable in a bathing suit, but as I get smaller I will. I love myself now and I'm not afraid of who I am. I know I'm not the size two model, but that's not how Heavenly Father has made me. He has given me this challenge to take on and I will. I won't psych myself out and say I don't have the motivation, strength or whatever excuse I can find. I know I have this strength.

“He shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people. Alma 7:11 

The Mountains are NEVER too high to climb!

I know I haven't blogged since last friday...my bad! I've been sick for the last few days. I pushed through it monday and walked but yesterday I did not even want to move after work. Today was a lot better after I stayed home and slept the whole day. I walked up to Lake Mountain Road and back down and then around the neighborhood going in and out of the streets! I feel wonderful! Next is to the top of the hill! :) I am a tad determined today! Maybe it's all the sleep I got today! WOOT!

The "food plan" as my cute aunt says is going really well this week, even though I haven't felt good! I need to get one of the water bladder things you use when you go camping for my walks, so I don't get so thirsty! Time to start bargain shopping for one! I'm going to try a new recipe for whole wheat cinnamon rolls or something like that! I'm so excited to be doing this journey!

 I would have never thought in a million years that I would be so excited to eat fresh fruit and veggies! I would've thought I was crazy but I know that's not how I think! I am so proud and excited about all the accomplishments I have made in a little less than a month! A year ago I would have never thought to eat ground turkey, a veggie burger, a salad that wasn't drenched in ranch, or even a fried potato. Now I want to eat these things and my family looks at me like where did Tori go. Haha!

I know I couldn't have done this without the help of so many of you! My Aunt Barbara called me today just to tell me that she was proud of me and that she prays for my success everyday. To me that meant the world. She is one of the most inspiring people in my life and I know that whatever question I have she will have an answer or something that can help. :) I never thought that I could walk to the road on the hill without dying, but tonight I DID IT! I am so excited to say that!

I know this is kind of all over the place, sorry! I know the most important thing in this is my Heavenly Father's love and guidance! That has mad this so much easier! I have even realized some of the smallest blessings in my life since I have started this! Anyways, I can't thank you all enough for your support and strength! I love you all dearly! :) Happy Days!

When you try your best and you Succeed! :)

WOOOOHOOO! I am down 9.6 pounds! I have NEVER been so proud of myself and today I am! I stepped on the scale last night and I thought over and over it's gonna be the same OR it's going to be up. I seriously wanted to cry I was so excited. I know I'm bragging but right now I don't care! I'm happy and excited! :)

Last night after I finished getting my new exercises for the next two weeks and having good conversations, I was talking to Melanie and decided we should walk (last night) We went around the neighborhood 3 times! It felt so great! :) I decided last night that my goal for the summer is to do a 5K, so now it's time to look for one. 

No I wont be running, however I will be walking and jogging! :) I hope you all have a safe, fun, and HEALTHY weekend! I love you all and I love the support from you all! :)

Keeping my eyes open!

So...this week has been kind of hard but I'm pushing through it. I have noticed a few things I do that I need to improve on and those would be 1) Watch the emotional eating 2) Remember to push through it no matter what 3) Don't let Satan stand in the way.

Tomorrow is a big day for me. I find out how my weight loss or gain is...SCARY!! According to everyone it looks like I've lost weight, however I don't see it. haha maybe it's because I just don't look in a mirror? All I know is that no matter what that scale says a year from now, it WILL be at least 100 pounds less if not more. I wont let anything stand in the way. Yes I may have my good days and my bad, but that's a part of life. So I will push through it.